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new journal so don't look for me here. mojorisinbabe.
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[17 Jul 2005|06:09pm] |
i might be going after all. maybe...
god at this time i hope not.
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| Fuck Europe! Fuck France! And Fuck PEre La Chaise!! |
[17 Jul 2005|05:29pm] |
I hate this! I hate the damn army! I never wanted to go on Mac flights! Now look at the hell we're put into. Suppose to leave the 8th and got pushed back to the 15th! Staying in fuckin south carolina for davey nows how many days!
My mom ande robert won't shut up and keep fighting! Ilove fuckn family vacations
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| Ancient One |
[16 Jul 2005|01:13pm] |
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the soft parade- The Doors |
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I) Wartime gig
I just don't know nemore.
The body stays awake
but the identification tag slipped off in the rain.
I look down at the shower drain
and up at its angry head
and I'm ready to let go of pain,
Still I hold on
the only real thing like the scars
but sometimes I wake up and don't remember my name.
But its fine here
the hops can get me by
and imported wine is cheap.
I'm hungry for a war
a familiar sinking of the ship.
The drowning in the screams
II. Getting old ain't bad with Drugs
Its strange I know,
faces fade, memories leave
I'm getting to old.
Or maybe its just the drugs.
I listen to the Doors
open and closing
leaving me behind.
I miss my gutair
but I'm afraid to play
I'm too afraid of crying
This maybe the last thing I post
the last sign of me
at least for awhile...
I guess I'm alone
but I can still see smiles.
is this weird for you?
The poetic phrasing
the jotted lines of my thoughts?
Its a little for me
I'd like to die
someday soon
but i'm too buch of a coward
and no one will pull the trigger for me.
i'm so ancient.
III. Ever get the feeling
...... if you cried they'd laugh?
...... if you smiled they'd frown?
maybe thats just me
outlineing the histroy
of what I never wanted to see.
IV. Will/Did you miss me?
well did/will you?
V. Minding my business
I suppose I should.
But that real hard these day
when the freakshow at 4 screams in your face.
Watching Maury and Ricki for six hours straight.
But thats the feeling I get.
I should be up on that stage with them.
Theres not much to come from me
might as well entertain.
VI . Drunk on something bad
Bewitching
Lightening
strike more then Thrice.
Excuse the bad refrence
but how to explain
when your drunk on something bad.
An emotion ,sort of
a flickering thought more likely.
Possibly a brain tumor?
This is getting too long for my taste.
but i won't erase it cause otherwise
my old mind will forget.
Hispanics are the ones most likely to get
Alzheimer.
Did you know that?
Shouldn't you be minding your business
or at least watching springer?
VII. Pere le Chaise
I'm going there.
Its a cemetery.
Oscar wilde lives there.
Morrison memorial.
Chopin.
all the cool cats go there.
so if you ever find my body
burn me
and scatter me near there.
Wonder if they got opium in the place.
Wouldn't doubt it.
Can't wait.
But if you can't burn it
then bury it
with something classy.
Something I'd never say
and something
you wouldn't either.
VIII All a big Joke
It really is
all a big joke.
You gotta be in it to win it.
But no one really wins.
Afterthought
"I am the Lizard King / I can do anything."
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| The Red Rizzo |
[28 Apr 2005|05:46pm] |
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So happy. And I can't tell anyone 'cause its still suppose to be a secret and no one can know until september. That sux. But i can give ya'll hints to my new found happiness.
^^^^^ look up at the subject and try your hand at guessing. heeheehee.
Damn, Ihaven't updated in such a long time, i feel almost guilty...
wait... no. i really don't.
But if you can guess, then it doesn't have to be a secret does it? No.. Then if one of you can guess, then I can tell the whole world my happy little news....
OH well , therees a lot I should say, at least thats the way I feel. But I really can't.
LEts see I fell in the play on Friday... ( shut up Marvin!)Umm... got grounded for report card, then extra gounded for progress report, will not technically be free till next saturday, but if all goes well, i hope to vist the movies this weekend with cat, and margie, and possibly Julie.
So happy!! Much love to all of you and if I ever talked bad about you i take it back.... well, I don't but ppl seem to come up with the strangest revelations about their lives on here, and i have yet to come up with one... so yea... i meant it when I called you a whore/ whatever.
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 CherryCola2402: ah, k, I was jk when I said that ne way
WolfRainQueen: yea. u should ayrin.
CherryCola2402: *big cheezy grin*
WolfRainQueen: :-D... cheezy nuf? now... i want cheese.
CherryCola2402: ooh, get me some!
WolfRainQueen: no!! * grabs large cheese wheel* All mine!! MINE!!! MINE MINEMINEMINEMINE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *hiss*
CherryCola2402: look, a beaver! *as fi looks away steals cheesewheel*
WolfRainQueen: *chasess polly* * grabs back of hair* * scratchs* *bites* * gets cheesewheel back* * disappears to mexico*
CherryCola2402: mwhahaha, that was PLASTIC cheese, I switched it with the real one before you caught up with me *eats cheese*
CherryCola2402: I updated larrythemuffin
WolfRainQueen: * returns* * grabs real cheese * * shoots back* * disappears to spain*
CherryCola2402: brb
CherryCola2402: ^_^ we're fighting over imaginary cheese
CherryCola2402: (btw, I'm back)
WolfRainQueen: the cheese is not imagenary!!! * mouth full of cheese* its the principle anyway.
CherryCola2402: ^_^
WolfRainQueen: r u mockin me??? U r. U r jealous of my cheesyness!!! Die demonDIE!
WolfRainQueen: ;-)
CherryCola2402: *eats a bag of extra-cheezy cheetoes* nothing beats the cheese in cheatoes!
WolfRainQueen: Its fake cheese! Everything beats it!!!
CherryCola2402: ...
WolfRainQueen: hahaha!! I am the cheese!! Bow down and worship me!!! * manic look in eyes*
CherryCola2402: x_X
WolfRainQueen wants to directly connect.
CherryCola2402: *grabs a bar of chocolate*
CherryCola2402: *eats while watching fifi's weird manic looks*
WolfRainQueen cancels request; no connection was made. (Note: For best results, you and your buddy should use the latest version of AIM.).
WolfRainQueen: :-[
CherryCola2402: ??? What was that
WolfRainQueen: i was tryin to send u a pic. did not work.
WolfRainQueen: it was of cheese.
CherryCola2402: oh, it doesn't work on my aim for some odd reason
WolfRainQueen: sry. didn't know.
WolfRainQueen: boo. hooo. * bawls*
CherryCola2402: 'sok
CherryCola2402: *gives a teddy bear*
CherryCola2402: hehe, at least my buddy icon on LJ is eating cheese. Beat that! mwhahahha!
CherryCola2402: well, I gotta go for now, I'll ttyl, kk? byebyeeeeeeeee
X spic n spam X: hi
WolfRainQueen: hello.
X spic n spam X: what is up
WolfRainQueen: nothin, talkin to Yudi.
X spic n spam X: anything interesting?
WolfRainQueen: her latest obsession... bored out of my mind...
X spic n spam X: lol whats her obsession
WolfRainQueen: a manga guy on guy Gravitation ( i now love gravititation)
X spic n spam X: mhmm
WolfRainQueen: grr. much anger.
X spic n spam X: anger?
WolfRainQueen: @ her. nothin but luv 4 u.
WolfRainQueen: shes boring me.
X spic n spam X: hehe
WolfRainQueen: why do i talk 2 her?
X spic n spam X: i ask myself that
WolfRainQueen: o, yes, or else i'd be even more bored then usual.
X spic n spam X: heh
X spic n spam X: thats why stephs here!
WolfRainQueen: O steph! *cries on shoulder* what will i do w/o u!!?
X spic n spam X: hehe
WolfRainQueen: u and ur mocking tones and ur judgemental character who never acts like a lady! What will i do w/o them.
X spic n spam X: lol
X spic n spam X: if you'd like to buy me flowers, just go ahead now. and if you'd like to talk for hours, just go ahead now.
WolfRainQueen: ? there is something wrong w/ u. def.
X spic n spam X: lol
X spic n spam X: i used to love that song.
WolfRainQueen: what song is it?
X spic n spam X: i dont know, but thats part of the chorus
WolfRainQueen: u need to learn ur song titles babe.
X spic n spam X: dude it was out in 3rd grade
X spic n spam X: i didnt know any bands much less song titles
WolfRainQueen: dude, don't give me any excuses!
X spic n spam X: lol
WolfRainQueen: mocking, bald canadian not as funny as ryan wanna be wayne brady mocker!
X spic n spam X: lol
WolfRainQueen: mocking, bald canadian not as funny as ryan wanna be wayne brady mocker!
X spic n spam X: how... redundant
WolfRainQueen: no!
X spic n spam X: :-(
WolfRainQueen: o. don't b sad I'm sry. been in witch form lately..
X spic n spam X: :'(
WolfRainQueen: ?
X spic n spam X: :-[
WolfRainQueen: why!
X spic n spam X: i dont know!
WolfRainQueen: k.
WolfRainQueen: somethin not rite in steph world.... what a redundent statement.
X spic n spam X: lol
WolfRainQueen: o. shes laughin again.
X spic n spam X: :'(
WolfRainQueen: i was j/k!
WolfRainQueen: sry i luv u.... *really bad singin voice* u r my fire. my 1 desire-
X spic n spam X: hah
X spic n spam X: ncie
X spic n spam X: nice
WolfRainQueen: i think its the backstreet boys. * stabs self* * dies*
X spic n spam X: i used to love them
X spic n spam X: i was trying to make a funny screen name today like BSBnNSYNc4eva
X spic n spam X: but they were all taken
X spic n spam X: no surprise there
WolfRainQueen: i mentioned that theres somethin not workin in that brain of urs.
X spic n spam X: many times
WolfRainQueen: good. @ least i know i have great observational skills. I took one of those inklblot things today.... apparently my unconsious mind seeks peace.
X spic n spam X: interesting
WolfRainQueen: yes. esp. when i'm always lookin 4 a fight.
X spic n spam X: lol
WolfRainQueen: grr. mock. mock. mock.
WolfRainQueen: the mating call of the elusive mocking bird.
X spic n spam X: haha
WolfRainQueen: * as cat, pounces on bird.*
X spic n spam X: lol
WolfRainQueen: * sees bird feathers in cats mouth* *cat smiles and purrs*
X spic n spam X: hehe
WolfRainQueen: ur still being a mocking bird.
X spic n spam X: mhmmm
WolfRainQueen: i hate u.
X spic n spam X: :-D
WolfRainQueen: burn.
WolfRainQueen: just burn.
X spic n spam X: :-*
WolfRainQueen: rawrr. fear my boxers.
X spic n spam X: :-(
WolfRainQueen: u r an emotional rollercoaster.
X spic n spam X: >:o
WolfRainQueen: c!
X spic n spam X: :'(
WolfRainQueen: steph, i'm warning u turn off the emotion. its all in good fun, my cute little kitty.
X spic n spam X: hmph
WolfRainQueen: ....
WolfRainQueen: .....
WolfRainQueen: ............................
X spic n spam X: sup
WolfRainQueen: ?
X spic n spam X: sup= what's up
X spic n spam X: heh.
WolfRainQueen: umm. nothin is up. just got off of an emotional rollercoster. whts w/ u.
X spic n spam X: donut.
WolfRainQueen: intresting.
X spic n spam X: you have no idea.
WolfRainQueen: i don't want 2 know.
WolfRainQueen: I'm thinkin that a good thing.
X spic n spam X: lol
X spic n spam X: the world may never know
WolfRainQueen: no. the worl knows. and it says it is a good thing. she told me so.
X spic n spam X: lol
WolfRainQueen: don't believe me? ask her ur self.
X spic n spam X: okay
WolfRainQueen: what did she say?
X spic n spam X: she said its a good thing but not many people believe her
WolfRainQueen: thank u! i rest my nonexsistent case.
X spic n spam X: lol
WolfRainQueen: will the nonexistent jury plz leave the cout room u've paid ur dues to society.
X spic n spam X: lol
WolfRainQueen: there might b something wrong w/ me.
X spic n spam X: like what?
WolfRainQueen: have u been 2 the conversations?
WolfRainQueen: been paying attention to the conversation?
X spic n spam X: lol
WolfRainQueen: who sounds saner u / me?
X spic n spam X: i know you're mest. jsut wondering what it was this time
X spic n spam X: lol
X spic n spam X: hard to say
WolfRainQueen: now come on I've covered bald jokes, mocking birds, Canadians, nonexsistent court cases, mother earth, and dead rabbi's.
X spic n spam X: lol
X spic n spam X: i missed the part about the dead rabbi
X spic n spam X: but i'd say he's pretty fly for a rabbi
WolfRainQueen: well ididn't actually cover dead rabbis, but i must agree on the comment. there. I think that coovers all of it.
X spic n spam X: yeah
WolfRainQueen: Thank u. and what have u done?
WolfRainQueen: this is a coveted award i'm not giving up w/o a fight.
X spic n spam X: ive planted tulips in the crisper drawer in the fridge
WolfRainQueen: in this conversation. plz do not incolude real life, i really want ot win this award.
WolfRainQueen: include.
X spic n spam X: okay you win
WolfRainQueen: thank u! This award... i'd like to dedicate this to god who gave me the gift of insanity. to mother 4 dropped me on my head too maNY TIMES, T o my brother for the lack of oxygen. To my opponent for not dressing to the occasion. Luv u steph. To fl. 4 letting me rot in the sun and to myself. It took a good thirty mins to win this award. * starts to cry* thank u all.
WolfRainQueen: *audience applauses*
X spic n spam X: hehe
X spic n spam X: applause
WolfRainQueen: and we return w/ the newest eposode of Steph mocks.
WolfRainQueen: lalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalal
WolfRainQueen: a
X spic n spam X: elmo's world
WolfRainQueen: i just saw elmo in grouchland! awesome movie!
X spic n spam X: heh
WolfRainQueen: its a kids movie.
X spic n spam X: really.
WolfRainQueen: yes. of course. only the best in quality movies.
X spic n spam X: of course
X spic n spam X: you ever get the feeling there's an octopus under your desk?
WolfRainQueen: yes, as a matter of fact rite now i think there may b a giant squid under mine.
X spic n spam X: well, i'll be.
WolfRainQueen: yes. i think u will b.
WolfRainQueen: c u later. i'm saving htis conversation, 4 proof of victory.
WolfRainQueen: bye.
X spic n spam X: byebye
WolfRainQueen: hi.
X spic n spam X: hey
WolfRainQueen: .....
X spic n spam X: ...?
WolfRainQueen: bored.
X spic n spam X: really
WolfRainQueen: u couldn't tell?
X spic n spam X: say something. make me happy
WolfRainQueen: the ppl in my head r arguing over who should have the last cheese puff.
X spic n spam X: *bits lip and holds back tear*
WolfRainQueen: yes. i know its dreadfully annoying. My alter ego, Eva keeps screaming at Gabbs and Sunshine 2 stop... but they've grown accostomed to the beatings... Owww. she just hit me in the side of the head. stupid witch!!!
X spic n spam X: lol
WolfRainQueen: grr.
X spic n spam X: waaaaaaaaaah
WolfRainQueen: r u crying?
WolfRainQueen: u. r. .... LMAO.
X spic n spam X: :'(
WolfRainQueen: j/k.... sorta.
X spic n spam X: mhmmm
WolfRainQueen: don't speak to me in that tone of voice.
X spic n spam X: hisssssss
WolfRainQueen: *scratchs eyeballs out*
X spic n spam X: yours or mine
WolfRainQueen: urs. idiot. i have no eyes.
X spic n spam X: right
WolfRainQueen: yes. thats right... hmmff.
WolfRainQueen: blah.
WolfRainQueen: lalalalalalalalalalalalal
WolfRainQueen: a
X spic n spam X: a
WolfRainQueen: a.a.a.a.a
X spic n spam X: b.b.b.b.
WolfRainQueen: c.c.c.c.c
X spic n spam X: d.d.d.d.d.
WolfRainQueen: e.e.e.e.e
X spic n spam X: z.z.z.z.
WolfRainQueen: is there a point 2 this?
WolfRainQueen: v.v.v.v.v.v.v.v.v.v.v.v.v.v.v.v.v
X spic n spam X: moo. moo. moo.
WolfRainQueen: dog.dog.dog.
X spic n spam X: Stop! collaborate and listen
WolfRainQueen: ice,ice, babe.
X spic n spam X: lol
WolfRainQueen: hehehe. bald canadian.
X spic n spam X: im sawwy
WolfRainQueen: ? did u eat tweety bird?
X spic n spam X: shh
WolfRainQueen: 8 hushed whisper* u did... u ate tweety bird.
WolfRainQueen: eek. the popo! run steph run!
X spic n spam X: aah!
WolfRainQueen: wait... no its just the stripper mahler hired 4 peter's b-day.
X spic n spam X: heh
WolfRainQueen: or mayb it is a popo? i'm not quite. sure. hmm. eh who cares. tweety is yummy. the judge will understand ur lack of self control... i htink.
WolfRainQueen: *think
X spic n spam X: lol
X spic n spam X: how would u know if tweety is yummy
WolfRainQueen: ummm....* looks around* i'm just... guessing? * nerveous laughter* hehehe.
X spic n spam X: lol
WolfRainQueen: what do u know short one!!! am i goin have 2 ice u? I know how to use a can opener!!!
X spic n spam X: right.
WolfRainQueen: yes!! i know 299 ways to kill w/ a can opner!!
X spic n spam X: i know 300
WolfRainQueen: bitch!
WolfRainQueen: i despise u....
X spic n spam X: do you really mean that
WolfRainQueen: only a little... * shys away sheepishly*
X spic n spam X: lol
WolfRainQueen: alot actually!!!
X spic n spam X: dont push it
WolfRainQueen: what u goin 2 use ur canopner on me? ! eh!? i have determination? what do u have... lots of skill better at this then me.... * cowers in corner* don'. hurt me... plz.
WolfRainQueen: i wuv u....
X spic n spam X: lol
X spic n spam X: its ok i wuv you too
WolfRainQueen: yay!! * hugs self* *feels so loved*
X spic n spam X: :-)
WolfRainQueen: ;-)
X spic n spam X: instead of making glow in the dark sunglasses, they should make glow in the dark night vision goggles
WolfRainQueen: u r so rite!!
WolfRainQueen: i always lose my night vision goggles in the dark.
X spic n spam X: me too
WolfRainQueen: they really should consider that. u should rite them a letter.
X spic n spam X: i should
WolfRainQueen: u could b rich... really rich. u could put the name eaton on the map.
X spic n spam X: yes
WolfRainQueen: i think i spelled ur name wrong. sry.
X spic n spam X: no you dint
X spic n spam X: you are special
WolfRainQueen: yay! * does speacial dance*
X spic n spam X: what makes me mad is when people are like "im away eaton dinner"
WolfRainQueen: really? note 2self: do that at some point in time
X spic n spam X: lol
X spic n spam X: this OJ doesnt have enough pulp
X spic n spam X: o... i didnt shake it up
WolfRainQueen: that might help love.
WolfRainQueen: grr. bored.
WolfRainQueen: oj is good.
X spic n spam X: i know
WolfRainQueen: i dodn't think u did.
X spic n spam X: hehe ... my moms saying goodnight to the cats and she's like "your a pretty little girl.. and george, your a pretty little poo poo head"
WolfRainQueen: she says goodnight to the cats?
WolfRainQueen: insanity must b hereditery...
X spic n spam X: lol
X spic n spam X: how was your day
WolfRainQueen: grrness. all around.
WolfRainQueen: just grr.
X spic n spam X: aw why
WolfRainQueen: that would make a great name 4 a brosadway show... just grr.
X spic n spam X: yes
WolfRainQueen: i don't know. it was .... just grrr.
X spic n spam X: mine was just *whimper*
WolfRainQueen: * whimper* that sounds like a good song title.
X spic n spam X: lol
WolfRainQueen: * in hard core voice* my day was just whimper. so very whimper. i cried half the time-
X spic n spam X: hah
X spic n spam X: i can imagine it in my head
WolfRainQueen: really. we'll make the billboards with it!
WolfRainQueen: we'll b rich. and then we'll go 2 africa and help ppls.
X spic n spam X: yeah!
WolfRainQueen: and then when every1 is sleeping... we'll. take over the world. mwhahaha
X spic n spam X: mwahahaha
X spic n spam X: yes i got pulp this time
WolfRainQueen: yes!!!! bloody hell yes!!
X spic n spam X: wow
X spic n spam X: your such a potty mouth
WolfRainQueen: am not!!
WolfRainQueen: am not!!!
WolfRainQueen: u r!!!
X spic n spam X: my friend told me bloody hell is like the worst cussing in england
X spic n spam X: its like the f word
X spic n spam X: except worse with hell added
X spic n spam X: and brits say the f word all the time
WolfRainQueen: and ur callin me a potty mouth?
WolfRainQueen: u should talk 2 her bout that...
X spic n spam X: lol
WolfRainQueen: grr.
WolfRainQueen: just grr.
WolfRainQueen: should it b all 1 word, hyphened, two words, what?
X spic n spam X: umm
WolfRainQueen: steph.. ur my partner in this... i need ur help. the broadway show must go on and the name is the must important!
X spic n spam X: hyphened
WolfRainQueen: r u sure.. pic this... the script. neatly typed. cover page, written by Fi castillo, directed by Steph Eaton, Just-Grr.
X spic n spam X: no it should be Just. Grr.
WolfRainQueen: Just.Grr. u really have a mind 4 this sorta thing. so u will direct it rite?\
WolfRainQueen: I'll rite the scriot.
WolfRainQueen: *script.
X spic n spam X: okay
WolfRainQueen: then we'll make a samll screen production. tweek it alittle. invite cool swankty ppl to see us perform and it'll b just great.
X spic n spam X: yes yes
WolfRainQueen: I can c the reviews now. " another award winning writting by Miss Castillo, granted the directing was at best metioker but other then that great"
WolfRainQueen: Miss castillo pulls it off again, as the lead of ______ in this well thought out production.
WolfRainQueen: I laughed i cried. and now i'm tellin others. Miss Castillo pulls trough yet again.
X spic n spam X: lol
WolfRainQueen: Yes... only one review for u.
WolfRainQueen: The acting sucked, the direction sucked worse, they shamed Miss castillo's work. Eaton will never work in this biz again.
WolfRainQueen: steph ppl don't like u in show biz. sry.
X spic n spam X: lol
X spic n spam X: darn
X spic n spam X: what about the kids in africa
WolfRainQueen: but i still wuv u.
WolfRainQueen: they comelater, after the tony awards.
X spic n spam X: oo
WolfRainQueen: promise.]
WolfRainQueen: then w/ the money we'll go do some good. then we'll b heros and i will get all the credit.
WolfRainQueen: thats when i cut myself off from u and take over hte world. mwahahaha.
X spic n spam X: aw
WolfRainQueen: i mean. we take over the world. 2gether.... errrr.
WolfRainQueen: lalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalal
WolfRainQueen: a
X spic n spam X: lalala
X spic n spam X: yay!!!!!
WolfRainQueen: hteres somethingnnot rite w/ us.
X spic n spam X: def.
WolfRainQueen: may b we should look 4 help?
WolfRainQueen: ...
X spic n spam X: nah
WolfRainQueen: no, i did'nt think so either. we're perfectly insane.
X spic n spam X: yeah
WolfRainQueen: auin't nothin wrong w/ us. we just enjoy cuttin ppls heads off, is all.
X spic n spam X: yep
X spic n spam X: nothing wrong with that
WolfRainQueen: yea. its just fun... and ppl 2day, just don't know how to have fun.
X spic n spam X: yeah
X spic n spam X: exactly
WolfRainQueen: thank u.
WolfRainQueen: ur the only 1 who really understands me.... i just.. *begins 2 have emotional breakdown* i... i just love u so damned much.
X spic n spam X: oh god *sniffles* *in high squeaky voice* i love you too, man!
WolfRainQueen: *cries* *big hug*
X spic n spam X: *hug*
WolfRainQueen: o... this is just greatness.
WolfRainQueen: *keeps crying*
X spic n spam X: *sobs*
WolfRainQueen: *still crying* we need to stop this... ppl will think we're fruitcakes... * brightens* i wanna fruitcake.
X spic n spam X: that used to be my nickname
WolfRainQueen: gee. wonder why... u fruitcake. ithink ur more of a cute little kitty.
X spic n spam X: yeah
WolfRainQueen: w/ ur cute lill ears and yow wittle tail and yow so fuzzywuzzyfuz furr... o. can keep u?
X spic n spam X: i am independent remember
WolfRainQueen: plz!!? i'll take care of u..
WolfRainQueen: plz!!
X spic n spam X: sorry.
WolfRainQueen: but.. i wuv u, so so much. * pets u8
X spic n spam X: hehe
X spic n spam X: purr
WolfRainQueen: c.. like me fine... plz. let me keep u.
X spic n spam X: give it up
X spic n spam X: it would never work out between us
WolfRainQueen: fine. b that way. * goes off to cornor to thinkof how to capture cute little kitty.*
X spic n spam X: i can hear you conniving
WolfRainQueen: no u can't. * uses magic wand 2 make kitty deaf*
X spic n spam X: i have extra senses
WolfRainQueen: hehehe.
WolfRainQueen: * comes up behind kitty w/ a cage.*
WolfRainQueen: * snatch* *scratch* 8 rawrr* Yay i got kitty.
X spic n spam X: magicallydisappears into mexico
WolfRainQueen: nooo! * cries*
WolfRainQueen: * magically appears next to kitty in mexico* * w/ cage* * tries again*
WolfRainQueen: 8succeds*
X spic n spam X: lays limp
WolfRainQueen: No!!! Kitty? B alive kitty!! * gives CPR* * kitty gets up and runs*
X spic n spam X: playing possum HAHA
WolfRainQueen: i think it was the CPR
X spic n spam X: whatever
WolfRainQueen: i'm gettin no love here. damn cat.
X spic n spam X: lol
WolfRainQueen: must u always mock/
X spic n spam X: its not mocking
X spic n spam X: get that in your head
WolfRainQueen: i'm in pain. the cat i love doesn't love me... its mocking.
X spic n spam X: i love you
WolfRainQueen: lies!!
X spic n spam X: i just cant be tied down
WolfRainQueen: u sound like ur breakingup w/ me...
X spic n spam X: we never were really.. together
WolfRainQueen: then...
WolfRainQueen: what about r palns to take over the world? * begins to cry* what bout the kids in africa.
WolfRainQueen: what about... Just. Grr.
X spic n spam X: nono
X spic n spam X: we were together as friends... just not as pet and owner
X spic n spam X: thats too big a commitment for me
WolfRainQueen: ur breaking my heart here. u really r.
X spic n spam X: im sorry
WolfRainQueen: no ur not... if u were u'd stay w/ me... ur horrible! i hate U!!!!
X spic n spam X: you dont mean that
WolfRainQueen: * throws vase at head*
WolfRainQueen: I do! * throws blowdryer*
X spic n spam X: now calm down
X spic n spam X: starts to purr soothingly
WolfRainQueen: nooo! I will not calm down!!! CAN'T U SEE I'M HEART BROKEN! NOTICE THE ALL CAPS!! ITS SERIOUS!!! * CRIES HARDER*
X spic n spam X: sits in finas lap and whimpers
WolfRainQueen: * calms down a bit and strokes fur* i need a kitty.
X spic n spam X: you can pet me
X spic n spam X: just dont cage me
WolfRainQueen: y?
X spic n spam X: i cannot be caged.
X spic n spam X: i must be free
WolfRainQueen: ur not a lion or anything. ur cat.
WolfRainQueen: a house hold cat.
X spic n spam X: i was born free
WolfRainQueen: well i despise ur freedom, and b/c of that. i'm leaving.
WolfRainQueen: also b/c my stepdaddy is makin me.
WolfRainQueen: * cries* good bye.
that... was an intreasting summer... at best...
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| My contribution to society. |
[21 Feb 2005|08:35pm] |
I'm the girl who got drunk, opened her mouth on new years, and is possibly getting her brother put back in jail for another good long while.
And in doing so, if he gets another convicton. we won't be able to see Bella anymore and that seems to be the only thing that keeps my mom from sinking.
My contibution to society comes into question. I've put... lets seee about six men in jail since the time I turned nine. Thats six people sent to prison and put away for some reason or another. Overflooding the prisons and crowding them in like cows for the slaughter houses.
Which makes me such a wonderful person.
I love Lisa Sweet's work.
Found her and a bunch of others on this awesome dark net site :http://darklinks.com/
Just thought it was cool. I think i want to make another pic of hers my bg as soon as i find out how to do that thing like on cooper's. Yea.
art by Lisa Sweet
http://www.hypnomedia.com/fangedfem/index2.htm
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[21 Feb 2005|09:52am] |
Nothing to say really just feel like updating without sounding emo. * does a irish dance*
woot Woot.
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[06 Feb 2005|04:09pm] |
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when i was 5 yrs old my mom told me she always wanted to be a lawyer and how she wanted to be rich and have a bunch of good stuff. And i was a 5 yr old wanting to make mommy proud. So i told her i'd become a lawyer for her and she made me swear to it. so now I " have" to go to law skool. I was 5. how do u make life decisions when ur 5?
In my dream Its 2 weeks b/4 graduation and my mom is pissed cause i'm going. I told her i was going to go to skool hre in florida but i was still moving out and i wasn't going to study law. and she seemed fine with it. Bt shes really not.
We'e on the RV and we're getting close to the georgia state line and a state trooper pulls us over, ( at this point in time i will still be a minor) he says someone reposted me as a runaway who did drugs and was mentally unstable ( who isn't these days?!), so he arrests me. The judge puts me in the phsyce ward b/c guess what!? They think my mom is smart and perfect and charming and i'm an ungrateful little bitch.( and they didn't find ne drugs in my system)
So i have to talk to this particular shrink and to make along story short she tells the judge I'm stable that from what i"ve said my mom's the one who should seek therapy and if i stay in the Ward ne longer i could be the next big time serial killer. So the judge agrees and out of spite I move to North carolina for the skool i wanted to go to..............
and then i had a weird dream about pork sausage?
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sometimes i wonder why i bother writting in this lj. ppl rarely check it and if they do they rarely comment on my problems.. No one ever found out who siad lucky for the goverment ppl don't think.
so i had to throw the money away.
hurt my leg two days ago playing with my 10 month old godnephew. ( angie's) and i'm alittle bumbed cause i can't go to either Miranda's or Wes's parties this weekend,i have to take care of the kiddies while the moms go out again.. They'll probably take my gradma with them which is all good.
Speaking of grandmas. I ;ve been sick lately..like mind and body sick. HTe other day I felt a low coming on and i alomst called Nino for a little indulgence, but i knew the low would only get worse once it was all done. Every now and again I make the fake smiles, someones been flipping the switch that makes me happy on and off.hmm. sounds like a poem
Every now and again I make the fake smiles
someones been flipping the switch that makes me
happy on and off
Caught myself in a basket of flowers
to find the petals have been picked off.
Love me, love me not.
I promise to try and know alittle
if you promise to stop the scars from forming.
foget it ever happened.
Catching glimpses of a cetain face
on my mind and he just won't go away.
but i really don't mind the companey.
They say its worth it, i never really listen
anyway they try to make it seem like it all ok.
but it stays there always.
Sometimes I admit, that i forget
and happy the dwarf does a dance
but then he finds snowhite on the floor.
Posion apples, sleeping pills,
Grandma called me a whore again
sorry to disappoint but its not so
I've got firends,lots of them
i hope someday they'l forget this shell of me.
hope they'll make it out
Today i caught myself in a fake smile
and loved it to its rotten core...
i guess eventually its nevermore.
Newyas. I would stay home form skool but my grandma would only take the oppurtounity to call me a whore and talk about my poor taste and how i'm just like her.
I sound depressed/ emo again but i'm really not... i'm actually in a very good mood.
I miss cathy and Cooper and luaren Ineversee them nemore. well only in the hallways, but its not the same...
g2g bi.
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[20 Jan 2005|05:06pm] |
now i have to write something funny to balance out the emoness of my life... Only problem is, i'm not good at planned funny..... i don't even like plums... if u didn't get that ur an idiot.
No!! Don't go! I didn't mean it!! I love u * big tears* I'm so alone!!!!!!!!!!!!!1 I have no one!!!
Ok see.. not planned, mildly entertaining but not exactly planned.
" Its the goverments luck that the masses don't think"
( I'll give ten dollars to who knows who said that.... * holds up half a $10 bill* damnit! where'd the other half go!Christ with fishstix on the side!!)
Its the unfortunate truth really. No one thinx for themsleves in the mass wholeness of things.The individual might be a little less retarded but only so much, ya know. Then u get the masses together and its like they vcan't think for themsleves. THe masses can only process one thing at a time and rite now its trying to decide between the steak or tunna melt platter.... Thats how tyrants are born. Real hardasses. THats all u need one hardass with a stik shoved too far up and the masses are the bleeding mice and his the big bad Piper we've heard about in childrn's stories.. ( a/n that one in particular is based on the children's crusade)
been having weird dreams lately of the sexual nature. The first one I'm w/ gerad fropm My Chem and we're on the dance floor of a techno club and margie's on the side with her huge chastity belt and Jullian has a camera... in the middle of a really nice move gerad tunrs into tyler. yes very weird.
next ones about the fab five, i'll spare u the details.
then its with Anna Nicole smith. Not event he cute one when she 1st came out but the fat redfaced whorey makeup one...
I'm disgusted w/ myself.. I'm going to throw up now... bi... hope this makes up for my emo behavior.
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[20 Jan 2005|04:32pm] |
Today has been very good. Until I got home and did what I knew I shouldn't I showed my report card. I got all As and Bs . Finally doing what The Unit wanted of me. Of course they only scuffed, o good, u shoulda been doing this fuckin good for awhile. No I'm proud of u. No I knew u could or I love you. Just a what took so damn long.
Whilist my younger cousin of minimal intellegence gets a Cs and a D and its all like Good Job!! We knew U could do It! We're so proud, with sincere tears of joy in their eyes and all that good shit. But damnit, its like my accoplishments don't even exsist.
I try to do good, I talk about not wanting to end up like them but I do want their approval.I want them to see me as me and not some future meal ticket.
My little cousin kenny doesn't seem to get that it pisses me off, that thats why I don't try most times. Keeps asking me all these questions and doesn't seem to get that its not worth it.
When i'm gone, which won't be to long, I hope they all come asking me for money and shit. I do.
So I can say: U did nothing to get me here. i don't owe a thing to u and ur mindless shit....
Again very emo. Wow, now I've got the look and the style...
and i was in such a good mood........
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[19 Jan 2005|04:18pm] |
I don't know why I do, but i looked in the mirror after school today. rite after I took out my contacts and put my hair up in a clip and put on my glasses, I just kinda noticed i looked real emo... I'm not saying being emo is bad, no i think cynisism and self hate is good for u.. i truely think so. It keeps u from being egotistical and it keeps u more realistic then depressed.
So i look emo, another emo tendency of mine i noticed is i never really update my journal unless something shit-worthy has happened, but oh well. I am waht I am and who can judge me for that?
No one exactly.
Only me and only those who i chose to let judge me.
So a funny thing happened today rite before 1st cooper made me get down on my knees and beg 4 4givness. I can't remember y... But i did it eventually. I can't remember y i did it either..... * ponders trying to remember..* O well.
Good Luck to Cat in DC!!! WOOT BAND!!
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Damnit.. I hate them all.
I was so fuckin happy. Iwas bouncing off the walls and wearing this stupid ass grin thinking everything was going to be damn good.
I figured they'd be happy for me, my so called goddamn family. My mother barely even showed intreast, and my brother called me up after i left a message on his phone and started cursing me out.
Happiness is obviously not my fucking color.. If it was ppl would let me be happy. jesus christ.. What the fuck id it going to take to get them to see me!!
do I have to end up on the bathroom floor like robertito? Or jakie? Do i have to get pregnant and an abortion!What?!Do I have to be as fucked up as htey are to make them happy? Do i have to be as miserable??
I wan to cry so bad, it hurts like shit. but I can't!!
I keep hearing My mom cry when my dad did whart he did and she told me I had to be strong. And My grandma telling me to forget the pain in my goddamn side where the glass is sticking out...
And all I want to fucking do is cry!! Is that too much to ask for!!!!!!!!!!!
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[31 Dec 2004|11:49am] |
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I can't remember a good christmas or a good new year. THere always seems ot be something wrong happening. Theres always been a fight pre guest arrival and puking when they get htere. I think they come pre wasted.
A great way to bring family&/family drinking partners and get smashed.
(I wonder if robert will end up like on father's day. He got so bad he started fuckin' cryin' aobut how the world was ending and at least we had someone to go out with ewhen it all came to a hault. I kept my mouth shut and didn't say nething. When all I wanted wwas to slap him and tell him straight to his face that the shit didn't matter. that i was going to end it all alone. but i didn't)
At least my face won't be so black and blue tonite. Its mostly gone. WHich is good I'd hate to go into the new year like htat.
I keep reminding myself its just 2 more yrs. 2 more holiday seasons before i'm out. before i don't ever have to scome back. 2 yrs....
I want a cat when I leave. A nice cat like Katie Scarlett or the neighbors grey one. A tomcat. Ad I want an apartment with a small kitchen with one or two rooms. and a roommate and a coffe maker. My own, so I don't get all the grimey stuff in it, but my own good premium coffee. I want a little treee on the coffe table with gifts, small cheap gifts underneath for the people that matter most. I want to work in a bookstore/cafe/music store part time. collect the money frm the VA and the two other scholarships and study libreal arts or acting and creative writting.
mostly I want caller ID so I can hang the phone up on my mom or just not answer it.
New Years Eve id stay home and fall asleep on the couch waiting for the ball to drop with my cat in my arms. my roommate would come home drunk and fall asleep on th floor next to the couch, trying to wake me up.
With my luck I'll wake up to an alchol posioning. But at least I'd be away from here...
2 more yrs. 2 more fuckin' yrs. I just got to remember that.
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[30 Dec 2004|08:14pm] |
Well well well, the old fashioned 17th century
vampire, one of my faves. You look for the good
things in life, you posses a lot of classical
class, and follow that of the original
vampires, you have no shame in what you are,
infact you embrace it, you love it and wouldn't
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Your Hidden Power Is Fire
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Gem Stone:Ruby, Eye
Color:Red,Hair Color:Red with Blonde
streaks that is just below your arm pits pulled
back into a pony tail.
Quote:If you're lost I'll keep you warm
and if your low just hold on..cause I will be
your safety.....don't leave home.....
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you represent the hard times in life. you have a
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You,re a very depressed, lonely person. Something
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don't have any friends because you dont see the
point in making them they will just leave
anyway so why bother or maybe you just dont
want them. But try and stay positive there are
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they just want to help. You might be scared to
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